Red Tape

At the Williamsburg post office wanted to buy stamps and pick up a package.
After I got the stamps I was told to stand in the 'Pick up' window's line.
I pointed out that had not been the case before, and it was rather unfair.
She said it wasn't her, but the managment's decision to keep the other line down.
I said I understood if I was just getting a package, but why should I have to stand in line twice?
She decided to get my package.

More red tape on the mailing front.
A package is being sent to me from Overstock.com via DHL.
I decided to see when it would be arriving.
It arrived yesterday, left at my door.
It was not.
So I called DHL.
They said it was.
I said I was here and I didn't get it.
She said she would contact the driver and call me back.
That was 6-1/2 hours ago.
So I contacted Overstock.com.
After repeating my story 3 times. And twice being told DHL left the package I finally asked for a supervisor, since I thought I was talking to a brick wall.
It took 4 more times asking for the name of the supervior before I got it.
I won't use it.
She finally understood and put out a trace and told me what that entailed.

It is really frustrating for an honest person in an age of mendacity.

Prospero at The Gates 

87 degrees

Sunday, sipping coffee, listening to music that should improve my brain.
Good medicine to counter my tequila-logging it last night.
Had a fitful sleep.
Because of too many margaritas, because of the mess in my room, because of calling myself stupid.
And then I made a conscious decision to be conscious of life from now on.
It is hard to sleep after that.
I had been trying to bend the world to my ideals and there is no surprise that it doesn't work.
I have not sleptwalked through my life thus far.
I have lived.
I have chosen paths less traveled.
I have callouses.
They are inside and outside and too many to count.
I love them.

I have friendships that are deep, honest and safe havens.
I don't like to give insincere embraces.
I have witnessed the backstabbings these give access to.

The people in my life have accumulated in spite of being (or because I am) a proud sea urchin.
Happy my poison spines keep a distance until, I feel I have found someone who will protect my tender side as I would theirs.

As I have aged, the spines have lengthened and multiplied.
I will have to shed some.

My foot grazed the leg of a brutal youth last night. His long legs were outstretched so the widest strider would trip.
He demanded an apology.
I did not comply.
I replied he got want he wanted by not being considerate of others.
He was huge.
I was drunk and spunky.
He spoke to me. I pretended to listen to my mp3 player.
He ranted to his pals, and they got off at the next stop.
But one of his gang apologized for his friend's behavior and he hoped that I would not judge the rest of them.

I lost the battery cap to my mp3.
I can't find a library book.
And I wonder if this is payment for not behaving better last night.
I could have apologized.
The brute became more of a brute.
And that is what I wanted.
Making me a brute too.

10 minutes before...

This will be short. Whatever I can think up, type and edit within 10 minutes. This is a test. Only a test. Testing 1...2...3...4.
I set up this blog to get my early morning writer fingers moving.
A Czerny exercise.
And with the action of my fingers, my mind may be wheted from pouring out the thoughts that have been released or are still stuck in dreams from the night before. Or a life before.
Czerny studied with Beethoven and taught Liszt.
Wrote "The School of the Left Hand"
In typing, the left hand isn't as handicapped.
Discipline.
An artist is nothing without discipline.
Those who aren't artists, see that life as one without structure. Without work.
Yet, how hard is it to structure that which has no structure, only the boundaries of an idea?
To have the courage to see that idea through, and then to release it to the world in hopes of a communion with at least one other.

That's it for now.